The Lemon Song

hahahahahahhaha just can’t stop
For Amphybia and Grace

Channeling energies

So. I hear you asking, “What has taken over Beweaver??” She is running wild. And tis true. And while in some ways it’s awesome, in other ways it’s a bit uncomfortable. And I’ve found myself thinking the last few days that there must be a way to harness all this sexual energy that has no real fun place to go and use it for something…

Every night when I get home I’m driven to create. I’m busy from the moment I walk in the door until my head hits the pillow.

Last night was metalwork. I began cutting out the elements for some of my metal pieces that will be either incorporated into a textile piece of some kind or stand on their own as gifts. Lots of sawing. up down up down in out in out, er… Sorry…

Freaked the cat out, all that frantic sawing. She hid in the bedroom all evening. Nuf said.

Picked up the Wheel of the Year project and am working hard on finishing Imbolg with Mabon in the queue. Have a new cloth for the mantle, lovely butter yellow linen with green running stitches. At some point it will have vines on it length wise but for now I need it on the mantle more than in my hands.

The Lady of Love Wants in on the Fun

The maiden rules in May and she wants her young lord. NOW.

If you aren’t squirming yet, you aren’t paying attention

Mating rituals

The Goddess and her Consort are just playing havoc with my self this Beltaine. I’ve stood at the edge of that stage at this man’s feet oh yes. Somebody get me some water.

I saw them that year, 1975… I swear he was wearing the same clothes. Nothing like standing at his feet looking up that long drink of water in a silk kimono shirt to make THIS 16 year old girl loose her frikking mind.

You need coolin, baby, Im not foolin,
Im gonna send you back to schoolin,
Way down inside honey, you need it,
I’m gonna give you my love,
every inch of my love

Blame it on Beltaine

Is that a sexy beast or what???? I just loves me a man who can dance. Not only is it a beautiful sight but I think that many of us believe that a person who can dance, can fuck. ooooh, she said the f word. And that belief has not always proven true. But there is something to be said for a strong sense of body consciousness.

New Inspirations

I’ve been mulling over what I want to do next project wise. Besides working on a couple private projects for a couple of friends. I’ve always got a lot of irons in the fire and there just aren’t enough at the moment I guess.

Yesterday I felt compelled to browse a local fabric shop (great stuff, high prices) and found the cutest little felt bag. They had three styles. A small shoulder bag (black) and two different sized totes (2 shades of blue). I just had to have the black felt bag. Part of me feels bad about the carbon footprint on it, it is made in Nepal. And part of me feels good about supporting some felt workers in Nepal. *sigh*

It’s so cute, screaming for embellishment. I might have to get a couple of these to embellish and sell but this one’s mine…

I also have been working on sketching up some designs for more bags. I pulled out my favorite tarot decks the other day and selected cards that have motifs and designs that speak to me right now. And started making them my own…

Spring Redecorating

A few changes around the ol’ homestead. Must be all the spring stuff I’m doing at home bleeding over into my virtual home…

As you have noticed the appearance has changed. I have also added a couple of new permanent pages. Comments. Events. Textile Gallery.

The other thing I’m doing is going through the archives of my old blog and bringing over posts and photos that I know I will want to access again one day. There are lots of “new” posts in the categories for the times when you are bored to death at work and simply must fritter it away reading about my little life. *wink*

I am a tad concerned about the Comments page. The creation of this page is not directed towards any one person or incident. I’ve simply become very aware that I have a dangerous hot button about certain things. The best thing I felt for me to do is to let you all know that the hot button exists and to give you a map that allows you to walk around the land mine. It is my fervent hope that you will not take this personally nor take it as a direction to simply not communicate with me. That would be a very sad thing as I’m so enjoying getting to know so many cool and interesting folks and staying connected with folks I’ve known for some time.

I have found that it’s best to understand where the boundary fence is BEFORE you crash into it in the dark.

See how hard it is to see? Even in the daylight? So I thought I’d give you all a red flag too.

Beltaine Hilarity

Something Pandora wrote in her blog today sparked a memory of the most recent OLTOEAS Beltaine that I attended.

There was a largish maypole in the center of a lovely grassy space. There were plenty of ribbons for everyone who wanted to participate. What was so funny was that there must have been 80 - 100 people who wanted to participate. It was the slowest maypole dance I have ever seen. The pole and ribbons simply weren’t long enough to facilitate space between each person allowing for a dance. It was a sardine maypole, all those people in a big circular cluster moving like turtles. it was sometimes 3-4 people deep trying to intertwine and move in opposite directions. I wish I could have taken a picture because I’m finding it difficult to illustrate with words how truly hilarious it was to watch. It was this dance that helped me see what fun it can be to be a merchant even if you aren’t selling anything. You get to watch the circus.

Eventually some of the participants saw the futility of it all and left and things loosened up a bit but I think it took 30 minutes at least for them to make their way around and wrap that pole. one step pause pause two step pause pause three step pause pause…. People could have been having sexual congress and I bet no one would have known… But there were children in the dance so I doubt that happened although I bet a few folks thought about it.

The Beholder

According to physicist Paul Steinhardt, “Good science creates two challenging puzzles for each puzzle it resolves.” I propose that we expand that formula to make it apply to life in general: Good decision-making about anything at all creates two challenging puzzles for each puzzle it resolves. That should be your guiding meditation, Cancerian. You are currently at the height of your ability to wrestle long-standing dilemmas into more satisfying configurations. I expect that whenever you capitalize on this potential, you will conjure up fresh riddles that will energize you for weeks.

I mentioned the other day that I’ve been moving through this interesting place, experience, change in myself of late. I spoke about it at the Jeshua session duringt the Q&A.

I spoke of this feeling of detachment in my own life. That I feel very often that I’m watching and observing what is going on with no sense of attachment or emotion. Not to say that I never feel emotion these days, what are the odds of THAT? But it feels as though, unless there is already a strong emotional attachment to a situation such as SNIB or my family member’s relapse, that I am oddly no longer emotionally attached to my life and the events in it, or more accurately that it is waning away. I asked Jeshua if he could speak to me about that. He asked if what I wanted was a progress report. Yes, exactly.

More on the Greenwood Tarot

There are 4 decks available in the world for sale ranging from $400 to over $1300. The book only is available for $150. Oi. Too rich for my blood. It appears that no one is interested in publishing the deck again. So what to do. I went to the illustrators website but her email bounces. What to do. I found a website, which I linked to yesterday. Between the website forum and illustrator’s site, I was able to get a copy of the handbook (without layouts) and the images in a largish size.

I’ve created a pdf of the handbook and am working on creating the same with the cards. The card pdf can be printed out in color on cardstock or glued to cardstock later. I’m determined to have this deck.